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What’s Does TMS (Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation) Feel Like?

Overall, the TMS treatments through Queensland Health have been far more bearable than past ECT treatments.  After a drama with making sure I was on the same medication each day, I became stable enough to start TMS treatment.  I think

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Posted in bipolar, ECT, Mood, TMS

Trauma work, bipolar and thoughts of suicide or homicide

The complexity of living with bipolar II and having a career where there I am exposed to others’ trauma is a lively tightrope walk that involves honest self-reflection, exceptional supervision and surrender.  I know some things, but I am not

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Posted in bipolar, Mood, work

Mood charting, boring but do it

Of the dozens of mood charts I have tried worldwide, online and on-paper, I most recommend this one by the Black Dog Institute in Australia.  I’m yet to find a mood tracking app that has the needed characteristics of this

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Posted in Basics, bipolar, bipolar II, Mood

Sodium Valproate = Relief

After being on Lithium a couple of years with bad side effects and decreasing effectiveness, I changed to sodium valproate (aka Depakote, Valproate) about 8 weeks ago.  I found some useful info on this site about side effects and such that might

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Posted in Binge Eating, bipolar, Meds, Mood

Bipolar 2 Symptoms That Don’t Make Sense

As always, I’m a person with lived experience and not a medical professional.  (Which I find is more often valuable for other folks, anyway).  Enjoy! The past couple of days I have been in my bed.  It has been a

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Posted in bipolar, Feelings, Mood

Suicidal yesterday, good today

Trigger Warning: I talk about some dark stuff here. Last week about this time I was in such great emotional pain that I was thinking about suicide every few minutes.  I pulled up to a roadside diner that had parallel

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Posted in Feelings, Medical, Mood, Uncategorized

How Culture, Communication and Relationships Hinder BP Progress

Over the course of my BP II discovery and diagnosis (anywhere from 5-20 years), I have lived in 2 distinct cultures where the communication expectations varied greatly.  Both discourage speaking up assertively or transparently.  Conflict in one culture is ignored and

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Posted in Feelings, Mood, Overall Health, Uncategorized