Bipolar II & Binge Eating Disorder (BED)

Okay party people, I binge eat.  Lots.  I can down the amount of calories normal people have over days and eat it in a 2o minutes.  It’s like food that is orgasmic for weeks then I eat so much and drain our bank account so far that I detest that food and move onto the next one.  Oh the psychological, physical and pleasure center layers that exist with this!  I can’t even begin to sort it.  I’m telling you this because in a few months I’m making a big decision.  I’ve tried a several weight loss plans, medically supported, too.  What happens is that when I go into a period of depression or a mixed episode that all my goodwill and ambition to lose goes out the window.  I hate the way my body feels.  Even my taste buds change.  Most of the time I love veggies, but when my buds change with the fluctuations in my mood, healthy foods that I normally love cause a gag reflex.

The drugs I take in case you are wondering are:

  • Lithium
  • Nardil (old school drug – has to be refrigered and weird diet – MAOI) – Many chemists don’t know what this is and have to special order it (refrigeration req’d)
  • Thyrozine (thyroid meds) (refrigeration req’d)
  • Immovane (sleep – sometimes works, sometimes doesn’t)
  • Adavan (only occasionally for severe anxiety)

This mix works pretty well for me.  I have gained 25 lbs (about 10 kilos) from my latest 2 weeks of bingeing.  It took me 8 weeks to lose that much.  The lithium causes weight gain, too. Doc mentioned a drug called Vyvance today.  The review on its site are AWESOME and HORRIBLE.  It’s like there’s no in between.  If I can take the drug, I would have to go off my Nardil because it’s an MAOI. I’d like to see if I can try it before I can go the surgical route, but I don’t know if it’s wise to get off of Nardil because it works well for me.

I’m going for another consult for weight loss surgery in a couple weeks.  I don’t know what the answer is, but I’m not happy with my weight.  I’m not happy with the feelings of being out of control with food.  I’m an addict.  No doubt.  I checked out a nonprofit place for eating disorders, but their waiting list is super long.  Once concern I have for the surgery is that I hear it can push you to depression because of the food deprivation and side effects like vomiting and having to eat tiny bites.  I’ll see what they say.  Toodles.

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FUN. SHIT. BIPOLARIFIC (II that is).

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